I am so sorry for your loss. I think I hate death more than anything on this earth, it it is a thief and a robber, and it steals time and relationships from us. I lost my mother many years ago, and I often think what a loss, never getting to see her grandchildren grow up. I lost my dad eight years ago, and though he didn't know anything about the a/v business, he was always a wise resource for questions about business and life in general. Losing your parents gives you a sense of your own mortality when you become the older generation.

I know this will not ring true for that many people, but one of my favorite verses in the Bible is in the final book, where it says, "and death and hell were thrown into the lake of fire." Goodbye stinkin' death.

Give yourself lots of time, the tears of grief will over time be replaced with tears of joy and thankfulness, just like Brian said. Take care.