my life is poo at the moment , i feel trapped and constantly mentally harassed by a person i love deeply , i have been with this person a long time and they have stuck with me through my darkest hours and my greatest achievement ..now i find myself seeing this person in a whole different light,
when did i let this happen? it seems a slow transition over many years has allowed me to take what i now look at as unreasonable behaviour as normal.
I feel bullied into conforming to how they want me to live my life and make me feel guilty for not doing this or doing that.
I am not after sympathy or advice or a shoulder to cry on (thanks for those who offered recently)
I realised that any change i have to do myself
i realised that i need to sort my own stall out to be who i want to be.
I hope that if there is anyone out there that has been through this sort of thing or is going through it right now , can gain strength from not being alone and will grab the impetus for change in there personal life.
this forum has long been a place where i could come and sprout balls..lol
In a few months i hope to be back "changed " and back on form
best wishes to all that know me and hi to all that dont yet
