On January 16, 2018 at 09:02, Fins said...
I wish you had your parents internet
I wish you were happier in your life.
You will probably be a happier person if you can control yourself from being negative. Practicing being negative just strengthens your bad feelings. Who the hell needs that?
Take some time each day to think about what's happening, who you know, who you love, who loves you, and for each such thing you think of, be grateful. THAT is a way to be happier.
I seem to be a test case for you: is Fins in control of himself enough to keep from harming himself by not being negative?